Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Monday, August 21, 2017 at 9:58 am.
I just woke up in agony pleading to someone in the room, “Please! Don’t leave me! Don’t leave me!” I sat up. Still feeling the rustling of a light cover over me, I saw a woman leave my room.
Was someone there watching over me while I slept? I looked all around for any sign of such a presence to no avail. Then, I let the tears flow. Perhaps that was a moment from the past that came to visit me.
I need to hear Your words in Psalms 139. Indeed! Your words are a lamp unto my feet to find my way when the journey gets foggy.
When my spirit’s vision is limited by the inevitable externals in my way, I need that lamp unto my feet. Psalms 139 always been that lamp.
Search Me, O my Father—O Father of mine, Search Me and Know My Heart
O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit or stand. When far away you know my every thought.
You chart the path ahead of me, and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment, you know where I am. You know what I am going to say before I even say it. You both precede and follow me, and place your hand of blessing on my head.
This is so amazing, too wonderful to believe! I can never be lost to your Spirit! I can never get away from my Father in the heavens!
If I go up to heaven, You are there; if I go down to the place of the dead, You are there. If I ride the morning winds to the farthest oceans, even there Your hand will guide me, Your strength will support me.
If I try to hide in the darkness, the night becomes light around me. For even darkness cannot hide from my Father in the heavens; to You the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are both alike to You.
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body, and knit them together in my mother’s womb.
Thank You for making me so wonderfully complex! It is amazing to think about. Your workmanship is marvelous‑‑and how well I know it.
You were there while I was being formed in utter seclusion! You saw me before I was born and scheduled each day of my life before I began to breathe. Every day was recorded in your Book!
How precious it is, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, to realize that You are thinking about me constantly! I can’t even count how many times a day your thoughts turn towards me. And when I waken in the morning, You are still thinking of me!
Surely You will slay the wicked—the carnal nature of mankind including my nasty carnal nature, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua! Away, bloodthirsty men! Begone! They blaspheme Your name and stand in arrogance against you‑‑how silly can they be? O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, shouldn’t I hate those who hate You? Shouldn’t I be grieved with them? Yes, I hate them, for Your enemies are my enemies too.
Search me, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
And so, on the authority of Your Word I have nothing to fear and all to rejoice because You are well acquainted with me! Still though I rejoice in You my Master I sense Your utter sadness because of the state and condition of Your children, including my own self.
Monday, August 21, 2017 at 11:15 am.
Yes, the agony of abandonment is deep within all human beings. I let the tears flow. Perhaps that was a moment from the past that came to visit me. It came to let me know the agony of abandonment been there within me all this time, but! I need not to agonize about it anymore because, it is now gone for good! Instead, I have been adopted into the beloved,
Although my father and my mother have forsaken me, yet my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua will take me up adopt me as His child. Psalms 27.
What a day this is turning out to be! I will post this in Thia’s Corner if I can find my way of doing it. Father? Are You ready to send me Your angels to do this posting? I haven’t got the slightest on how to do it. I wait on You.
His love in my heart for all remains there to stay for eternity, thiaBasilia.