I Want Real

I never understood the need for extravagant gifts from the person you love. I’ve had that and in the end the relationship meant nothing to me and neither did the gifts he gave to me.

I am very simple. Time together is the best present anyone can give me. I would rather talk, prepare a meal together, laugh at all the funny things happening around us. Making memories is priceless.

And I am doing all of this again and it feels good. No, actually it feels great. I have something pretty special going on in my life but I am going to preserve it for now.  I want to share and I will, one day. But not yet. Things are familiar but very different, in a good way. Maybe I finally got my happening ending, from a new beginning. Time will tell and I hope time is on my side. Its been a long time coming and lots of hard work on my part. I have fallen a thousand times but what matters is how I get back up. And I do, every single time, sometimes stronger, sometimes weaker, but ultimately I get back up. We all know old scars are hard to heal. And that is what I am working on for me. I’m trying to not always expect the worst to happen and live in the moment.

I’ve been contemplating shutting down my blog but I realized I would miss writing and I would miss connecting with all of you. So I may just write less for now but I will not be going away, at least not for good.

I am happy, I am content and I am looking forward to 2018. And that is the best gift of all.

 

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