Still I Smile
You can mock me all you want
Murmur my plans will fail
Foresee my projects are doomed
Whisper am a loser
but still I smile
You can pretend I am your friend
Talk behind my back all you can
Make excuses for avoiding my calls
Rejoice over my mistakes
for your hypocrisy still I smile
You can sit there and gossip
Spend your time visiting
Talking about who said and did what
while you grumble nothing is working
to that misery I smile
Don’t think you are the loser?
Are you serious you still can?
Do you think anybody really cares?
Why not say you can’t instead of the silence?
That’s why still I smile
I just get it – it’s not about me
You are whallowing in your own misery
self pity, doubt & loathing masqueraded
you point a finger and three point to you
Isn’t that worth smiling at?
You now can tell my smile
I smile at me, for me and with me
and it keeps me oh so young
ever fresh and genuine
no need for make up
I’ll keep my smile
Your friendship ain’t worth my mind
I’ll have my smile with each meal
and for each mistake I make
I’ll keep the take
And for that …
still I smile
(C) Marie Abanga
p.s: Sometimes we take such hits in life for different reasons, and they rock our boat and knock us really off feet. I have been most shaken, but the blizzards caused by people especially some I though had my back. I don’t know about you, but I have come to stop given them that permission to make or leave me any ruffled. The inspiration to write it away in poetry has and is a definite life saver for which I am most grateful. And this is why, no matter how bad it get, I take my membership with the happy league seriously, and Still I Smile…are you looking at it this way too?
Marie Angele Abanga (simplified to Marie Abanga) aka MAG likes to describe herself as a “Jacqueline of several trades”. She is an everyday woman and mother with a zigzag profile. Let’s give it a try! She is an Activist, an Author, a Coach, a Consultant, a Feminist, a Lawyer, a Lecturer, a Prince 2 Project Manager, a Psychotherapist, a Philanthropist and an etc! She just loves to sum it up by saying she is a person of passions and a tale of talents. Her life’s journey has filled 6 books already and her three musketeers keep her busy at home.
MAG is also the founder and CEO of the association Hope for the Abused and Battered, and the Country Director of the Gabriel Bebonbechem Foundation for Epilepsy & Mental wellbeing.
The plethora of life's experiences and shenanigans she has lived through and learned from in near 4 decades of existence, have equipped her with such an arsenal to coach, train and motivate just any and everyone. She is so charismatic, dynamic and full of life, going by her designed mantra of 3Ds: Determination; Discipline and Dedication. These sum her+her quest to be the best version of herself and impact others perfectly. She attributes all her wealth of knowledge to her conscientious attendance of both informal and formal school.