This is the time To stop and think; Where am I heading to? This is the time To stop and think; Where am I coming from? And Where am I going? This is the time To stop and think; Do I continue to Where I am going? Or it is time To change my course? This is the time To stop and think; Many questions To think about; Many questions to ask And answer. Truly, This is the time To stop and think.
It has been three long months at a B-School while I am still trying to adjust to its hectic ways and demands. Joining a curriculum straight after a weak graduation does not seem to be a wise move but I am glad like few others I have been able to make it and I am breathing fine. While I still panic at times to decipher the meanings of the occurrences around me, I make several observations, few of which need to be learned and many to be discarded as irrelevant happenings. Being one of the youngest people at my college, what I really feel blessed about is when many people confide in me. However some confessions really strike hard leaving me in wonder. Are we supposed to be going by the worldly ways that are common and seemingly right or abide by our morals that rarely make our conscience speak urging us to take the path that might not be clichéd?
Anyway my purpose is not to question morals regarding what is right or wrong for I feel it is all a personal choice and a matter of the upbringing but yes I wish to assert that what is common is not what is natural!
Being a part of one of the coolest gang in my college, many a times I am offered drinks and cigarettes, however since I am adamant on not trying these, I am more and often forced to go for it in the lieu of missing out something really great and worth trying! What has been strange was when two of the members of the same group approached me personally, individually regarding the issues they had been facing in regard to the addictions. I was really shocked by the fact that those were the same people regretting who were forcing me the most in the group to drink and smoke. Well, I didn’t know how to react while they confessed their regret for they were elder to me. But it was really despicable to know that they were indulging in something that they actually didn’t enjoy. Of course I could easily sense from their conversations that it was a way out to escape from the daily tensions but cannot there be another way to evade the stress levels?
Well, I had no advice for them because I actually didn’t know what would work but all I could explain to them was relatively in terms of how they were getting trapped and succumbing themselves to the slavery of these addictions. Hearing their individual rants, one thing became very clear that all of it starts with peer pressure and the worst part is that despite knowing the harmful impacts, they are unable to quit it.
Another trait of human being that comes forward is that the one who is trapped in this vicious cycle of vices, feels pleasure and relief to have others on the same way as well. Making the incorrect correct has become very common nowadays and so it is really a tough call for people with a gullible mind to follow their intuition. Maybe that is the reason of our dying conscience as the world is so fond of making common vices seem like a natural process and ironically it happens to an extent that the line between the right and the wrong vanishes slowly.
‘Doing what one believes in’ is still not a banal quote to say for most of us still act out of pressure which can be family, peer and societal that succumbs our mind and weakens our heart. Undoubtedly it depletes our aura and breaks our determination for we end up committing regretting actions which we later try to justify by falsely convincing ourselves ‘ it is okay , it happens! ’
Before this article turns out to be a boring moral lesson , I got to write this simple reminder that let us not be a victim of the unconscious moves but rather be thoughtful of the consequences before we again end up doing just another common thing!
Rambling through the untraveled vastness Sighing for the unique greatness, I reach my destination Fulfilling the manifestation And Oh I realize! I am still far away
Ambition that lead the sight With enormous power in the flight, I headed towards a goal Until I stumbled upon a pothole And Oh I realize! I am still far away
Celebrating the victories Ignoring the miseries, I try finding grace In the worldly menace And Oh I realize! I am still far away
Speculating upon my existence Hiding weight with drapes of pretense, I act in the most immaculate manner Demanding work out of my caliber And Oh I realize! I am still far away
Breathing hard with people around Crying incessantly when none surround, Meditating for tranqillity With mind pushing away stability And Oh I realize! I am still far away
Leaving my destination That I carved through passion , I am gonna sail across the ocean; Never to reach those edges, That have mortal ends But where peace resides, With no veiled devil spouse Where love is free, With no attached strings Where happiness resonates abundantly, With no defined limitations Where righteousness exists, With no need for justice Where fears have no say, With no deficiencies to reveal Where numbers exist for play, With no values to assign Where acceptance of verity is easy, With no grief hovering Where giving becomes unconditional, With no ulterior motives Where contentment lives, With no body to own.
I know And yes! I know I am still far away To realize that all has been in me! I am still far away To dive into the sea of divinity That perennially flows in my blood, I am still far away To extract the glowing pearls That can prove my worth, I am still far away To be near to solitude That can give me solace, I am still far away To perceive the colours Between black and white, I am still far away To know that stars are uncountable, I am still far away To know the purpose That makes the earth attractive for my stay, I am far far away To know who I am!
No longer can I allow the world to define me, I need to have my own definition,the one that is written by me and suits me the best.
No longer will I choose what I like over what is right for me as I know the consequences of the first.
Choosing an attractive and easy path can provide me temporary pleasure but in the long run it will turn out to be a just another ordinary life that the masses live, trying to satisfy themselves with less.
No longer do I need to impress anyone for it requires acting according to others’ preferences (being diplomatic, fake and pretentious). Changing myself for others only causes suffocation and discomfort.Thus I will change only if it is essential for my growth as a human being.
No longer can I allow the external environment and its vivid factors to affect my peace for I cannot control anyone’s actions and behaviour. All I can do is programme my mind (to accept/ignore and face) , choosing not to create internal disturbance.
No longer does it matter what others think or say about me for it describes their thought process. All that actually matters to me is what I think about others because that is what will be first created in me and will therefore reflect my personality and affect my vibrations.
No longer do I need to take part in any such argument that holds no sense for such fights lead to no conclusion and end up wasting time. I will speak only if necessary.
No longer do I need to prove myself or my way of righteousness for everyone has a different definition of being right and I need to respect it. I am only accountable to God and supposed to give advices and suggestions to others only if I have stepped in their shoes before.
No longer do I need to say ‘Yes’ to every distraction that has nothing to do with my goal or its journey. It is difficult for me to say ‘No’ but then I understand prioritizing needs is always more important.Moreover if things or people who deserve to be a part of my life will stay forever undoubtedly.
No longer do I need to hold expectations from anyone else as it certainly leads to disappointments at some point of time. The only person who deserves to fulfil my expectations is myself.
No longer will I make contradictory statements and renege from my own words. Since I have to be powerful and meaningful therefore I have to learn to stay true to my words.
No longer will I make my accomplishments a source of my happiness. Achievements are important to me only because of the fact that every milestone crossed provides me with a new insight paving a way for another exciting journey.
No longer will I pass my time in wasteful analyzing for I really need to work hard to be the creator of my destiny and make things fall exactly the way I dream. All it requires is to utilize each and every second of my life fruitfully.
No longer will I slog or trudge along the journey to my destination for it will only create misery and unhappiness. I will find bliss in my work and will never quit.
No longer will I carry the baggage of hurt and pain in my heart for it is too heavy. It is not that easy to drop it for I do not forgive easily but I have to do it for I have far more important things in my life to aim and focus.
No longer will I think twice before helping anyone about what comes back. I will continue going out of my way for others because their smile and happiness is important to me.
No longer will I get emotionally attached to people and objects around me for I wish to be in the position of a ‘giver’ forever – always emitting love and kindness. This requires great strength and sometimes not allowing the heart to fall but I think I will be able to do it for I understand its benefits.Moreover I also know how to take energy and love from God and so that will make me stronger,happier and independent.
I know implementing all that I have mentioned above will give me a hard time but I also know that I will be able to practice it for I am a ‘solution oriented’ individual deserving only what is best for ‘me’!
Your innumerable trials In fretful agita , To attain the perfect smile That beseems immaculately In the ever changing frame of others. I fail to fathom Your inner foist , If it is self obsession Or the fear of unacceptability ?
When you choose to busily ignore , Those who have caused you hurt It somehow seems like an intentional escape ! Have you really forgotten and forgiven them Or is it your way to alleviate the pain ?
As you generously help and accompany others Suddenly out of the way ; I wonder if you are actually so benevolent Or is to assuage your own helplessness and solitude ?
When you act nice as a pie , I fail to decipher , Between the Real you And your arduous efforts Meant to create an indelible impression !
During your euphoria moments When you party overnight, Coordinating moves with stentorian pop ; I am not able to discern , If you are truly enjoying Or just desperately trying To resonate your achievements In order to gather fame Among your affluent invitees !
Seeing you suffering through the downs When you resort to indoors ; I eagerly wish to know What are you hiding from ? The sarcasm of the perfunctory world Or is it your own scintillating aura That you cannot watch disappearing !
My sincere efforts go in vain As I try discovering you , For I miserably fail to define you ! Unable to reach even to a single conclusion About the Real You ! I choose not to give up on you For I know you are something divine !
Now I will wait On my hand and foot , Even if it will be a long haul. ; For that one day out of the blue , When you will have the courage Of your convictions And will take it in both hands By loving yourself enough , To uncover your tightly fitted mask Finally evanescing the air of pretence !
Why do you know what is right,
But do what is wrong?
Why do you know you should think positive
But think negative?
Why do you know you should turn stumbling-blocks
But keep brooding over your stumbling-blocks
And not turning them into stepping-stones?
Tell me why you do this?