I wish I could rewrite my history. As a lonely child, I often cried in my room. I felt the entire world squarely on my shoulders. Maybe it was a maturity thing, and I hoped I’d outgrow it, but it didn’t happen. In fact, it worsened with the complexity of growing up. I reflect today and wonder how in the world I made it through the storms of previous generations. The residue left little for me to conquer, not to mention my compounding disabilities.
Saved by God’s grace, I rose to the challenge. He gives us choices in life. I was determined to be better than the inherited memories I’d just as soon forget, so I remained in prayer….
Life has no reverse. There isn’t a miracle that can turn back the hands of time, even in God’s hands. But, if we pray consistently for answers, sometimes God will give us a hint into His plans. I believe there comes a time when the Lord says enough is enough and He lets us preview His intentions. Protecting what’s left of humanity, blessings will flow, and we will be born again in a summery spring shower.
Windows of light will ignite the spirit. Even though our future may appear grim to us now, God has a purpose for everything, but it’s in His perfect timing. We may not find out until much later precisely what God’s purpose is but patience must become a virtue. Eventually, God will let you in on His idea. I could not believe it when it happened to me.
In 1985, I was headed in a completely different direction when God gave me a sneak preview into my future. I inadvertently held a young blonde’s hand, and when I did, I somehow knew God was blessing something about to happen in my future. Thirty-two years later she became my wife! Living, life, and love – God abounds no matter where your persona lies. God is always with us. I quietly sit and reflect on the failures that I endured, but I know now it was worth it all.
Do not fear giving God your messes in life! He is the Great Comforter that calms the raging waters. He soothes broken hearts, relieves the pain of loss, and heals the sick. We should understand nothing in His plan will ultimately harm us. Give your life to him! Live righteously, love your neighbor as yourself. Don’t forget to thank God too for the new you. You’ll love it!